6 October 2008, 3:50 am
Hi I know this is long but i really need some advice. I'm in grade 9 at the moment in high school. I look older than i am which everyone tells me (even random people) and some say i'm really pretty but i don't believe them. I'm really self conscious about my weight, i'm about a size twelve and bigger then most of my friends, they are all so skinny! I feel Okay about myself outside of school but i still cant stop thinking i need to lose Weight, everyone is always like "Your not fat, your fine" but i'm not happy with my body. I feel so out of place at school, my friends aren't that great, they are immature and gossip about each other and i hate being a part of the group, i wish i had better friends but our grade is separated into 3 basically, the girls who wag class and smoke and get drunk all the time, my friends and then this HUGE group which think they are really great (all the guys hang out with them) It's so frustrating because the girls i hang out with are loud, stupid and bitch about each other all the time and i'm better then that and i don't want to be treated like a follower. I hate going to school and i feel alone, nobody really knows much about me, they are all too busy talking about themselves. I used to be really outgoing and stuff but now i keep to myself alot more. I do dance at school which i used to love and i used to dance all the time but now i dont want to do it, the girls in my class are the popular girls who ignore me and my "friends" who im always stuck with, i don't feel confident at all in the class because i keep comparing myself to others. My mum reckons i'm too harsh on myself but i cannot help it. How can i change things? Please help. x... read more
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